Damnit

I think I did worse on this year’s PSAT’s than last year’s. *fails*

I DON’T RECALL EVER MAKING SO MANY STUPID MISTAKES IN MATH IN MY LIFE. D: And the math curves are… worse than the others. At first, I thought, considering I got a 207 last year, and afterin going over my test… I could’ve definitely raised my selection index passed the semi-finalist score, that I would do well on this. >_>; BUT… I tend to collapse upon pressure. x___x It didn’t used to be that way (I used to think more level-headedly in pressure = less stupid mistakes) My counselor… last year… commended me for getting a 207 as a sophomore… Yes, and all my teachers were saying good luck and the what not. People at school, in general, tend to have uber high expectations of me. >_>; So… PRESSURE COMBINED WITH THE FACT THAT, WHILE DOING THE PRETEST, I ENDED UP GETTING A 197… for who knows why… I caved in during the actual PSAT. Most noticeable part is the math. >_>; Where’d my logic go in answering those questions?!

That… and… I think I got a B on my history test. Once again… Actually, this might all be due to the fact that this week, I’ve gotten so little sleep studying for other tests. Great, start off strong, then your energy slowly degenerates until the point you can’t think straight any more. I mean… how on earth… do I confuse the Articles, which we learned about 2 tests ago… with the Declaration!? >_>; And one common sense problem that I missed.

OKAY. So, what does my performance on these two tests mean to me? 1. I have totally just destroyed any and all confidence in my ability that I have strengthened over the last year (blame it on always doing so well on other tests) >_>; 2. Self-inflicted punishment = no JDramas/Jpop until… vacation. 3. More time devoted to studying (Goal of 2-3 practice tests a week) 4. Less time wasted on procrastination.

So, needless to say, I’m sorry if I don’t comment or read your journals as often… Life is hectic. I’m frustrated with myself.

And I have 2 essays to write, a Spanish test to study for, 100 Powerpoint slides to develop, and some 30 pages of notes to type up.

ULTIMATE STRESS OF THE YEAR.

This week and it’s BILLION tests can die.

On a more lighthearted note, I went to Starbucks with the same two friends that came to my house last time. Then two of us ate Quiznos together~~ xD;; Gosh, we waited for the bus but it never came, so I called my mom. >_>; He came over and we played a bit of SSBM hahaha. Nyaa~ Friends are the best.

/rant