I don’t know what to think. It seems like friends are becoming mere acquaintances, and I’m quickly becoming completely out of touch with everyone.
Sure, I exchange your average AIM hello’s with my college friends, but it’s not like they seriously have time to really waste on something as trivial as that.
My JPL friends? We really do live in separate worlds, even though they might be only separated by some 20 miles to 40 miles.
Sometimes you wish to become assimilated with a new world, but that just never happens.
Then you have school friends. Sure, I talk to them about school work and the occasional robotics meeting, but everything’s just so casual that, well, sometimes I wonder if it can be considered friendship at all.
I guess I have a lot of friends, just few that are really close, and living far away from them doesn’t help in the least bit.
Then you have online friends. I feel horrible for so rarely commenting. I’ve known Jackie and Aleli and Kc since before all of the people I’ve thus far mentioned. (And let’s just say that I rarely ever speak to my junior high school friends any more.) Even though we don’t spend countless hours chatting about the latest Bleach or JE rumor, I must say that it’s been fun, and the occasional ZOMG something happened! really helps to cheer me up. Thanks for always sticking by me. ♥
But I guess it feels a little depressing when you come back from a rather horrible week at school to see that one of your friends has “unfriended” you… without so much as a reason directed at you… specifically.
I guess that just shows how times are changing.
2007. Really, I’m so sick and tired of the random crap I’ve had to deal with this year.
All my college applications, senior woes, and other nonsense just neet to go away and leave me alone forever.
I’m already depressed as it is. My summer party was a failure. I thought it really exemplified how, well, little people regarded friendship. I guess it’s inevitable. Things come up unexpectedly…
But I highly doubt any future parties will be as memorable as my Sweet Sixteen party. *shrug* No one’s going to come, and the image has been completely tainted.
Yep. Tainted.
Now maybe I’ll go ice skating or to Disneyland (At least Disneyland hasn’t failed me) over the break. I need to just release all this stress.
One more week until break. One more week of hell.
College applications, forced commitments… what more can you not ask for?
*hugs* It’s been such a rough year on all of us. D: Hopefully this coming year will bring better things, ne?
I <3 you, Angie. You're the friend that I've had the longest online (and one of the friends I've had longest overall), and I think you're absolutely wonderful. You'll meet people in college, I think. You just haven't met the right kind of people yet, I suppose! Keep your chin up and remember that I'm here for you, even if I'm 1000-something miles away... <3 *glomps*